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Well, I guess it's about time for another rant.

In science we talk about the sun and how eventually it will blow up destroying everything on earth. Well, its depressing... our teacher only helped by saying "but we will all be dead by then". And I realized that i'm not afraid of dying... I just dont want to be dead. It's got me in a funky attitude, I talked with Mr. D-mo about it and we realized that we don't want to be just another head stone... we want to be fudging remembered. I really do, I don't want to lose my legacy within my family, but I want people to feel something when I die. I will probably cry the day Bill Gates dies, I'm not going to lie. He is one of my personal heroes, not because of the money but because his dream came true. He wanted a computer at almost every home and he did it. He has improved my life in ways I cannot explain, one day I would love to shake hands with the man. It would be one of the best days of my life.

Now, I'm 'concerned' about our future because everyone is trying to be protected from everything that is violent and everything, but you know what? I don't care how violent it is. If it happens I want to know about it. I don't care how I feel about it, because emotions are emotions, the media makes the congress evil, the president stupid and evil, and everone inbetween. They're bored and need someone to pick on; and I am sick of it. I couldn't care less how much Palin spends on her clothes, I couldn't care less about something an actor did. People are people, there are two types... Man, and Woman; statistically we are different but we are still built the same in many ways, there isn't a perfect human, get over it. There are great ones, but they aren't perfect. On the news I want to hear about the war in Iraq, I want to hear about the school shootings, I want to know if a 5 year old was killed by her parents. I want to know because I do care. When I hear about someone getting killed, it strikes a chord within me, I can't just ignore it. Someone won't live on to see the rest of their life because someone took the law into their own hands... let me hear about it.

I personally cannot wait for school to be over, I can't wait to have a life again! Oh, it'll be great fun, even though it won't be. I'm a person who would rather be behind the scenes than attending a party. Such as today, I have a film festival and I was incharge of running our videos and live input. I'm much happier in there than I am out just watching things, I need something to do... so I don't know what I will do. Also, I really want to move out of this state. Honestly after high school, I'm gone... see ya, getting a 1 way ticket to anywhere but here. I've been here and done this... My first plan is to join the Air Force. Depending on how it goes, I'll stay in just to get college paid for and then get out, or stay in an get the benefits. *sigh* It's hard going through life now... but I'm working through it, and by the way, I don't care how much you say your life sucks, because yes... my family has enough money, I've got decent houses and all of that, but socioeconomics determine nothing to me. I'm an over achiver and go getter most of the time, it's difficult, but really I'm not doing anything it feels like.